I'm starting to get really exhausted. Mentally and physically. I just feel like I have no energy, and no matter how hard I work, I just don't get the job done. Its scary to feel like this, and I hate it. Talking with Becker today helped lots, but even so I still feel uneasy. So I think I'm going to talk to Dr.Ostrander tomorrow. It seems like since he sent me that really complimentary email things have gone downhill. Maybe I'm trying too hard to live up to expectations. I just want to play music like I know I can, and love doing it. It sucks picking up the horn and dreading what sound might come out. Time to get some things straight.
I begin lesson teaching tomorrow, gotta admit I'm really excited. My student is a 10 year old girl who luckily converted from trumpet before it was too late. (hehe) I can't wait to get her excited about music and teach her how to play a superior instrument. (*just playin' all you trumpet players out there. ;)
I think I'm going to take some time off of AIM, but I'll probably keep blogging. It gives me a chance to relax and think over the events of the day. Today was pretty much the worst day I've had at collge, all kinds of things seemed like they went wrong. Lucky for me I have some great friends who stick by me when shit happens. Thanks guys, I owe you one. (or 20) lol.
Time to get some time scheduling done, if you want to reach me over the next few days, my cell will be on.
Love,
Rachel
I begin lesson teaching tomorrow, gotta admit I'm really excited. My student is a 10 year old girl who luckily converted from trumpet before it was too late. (hehe) I can't wait to get her excited about music and teach her how to play a superior instrument. (*just playin' all you trumpet players out there. ;)
I think I'm going to take some time off of AIM, but I'll probably keep blogging. It gives me a chance to relax and think over the events of the day. Today was pretty much the worst day I've had at collge, all kinds of things seemed like they went wrong. Lucky for me I have some great friends who stick by me when shit happens. Thanks guys, I owe you one. (or 20) lol.
Time to get some time scheduling done, if you want to reach me over the next few days, my cell will be on.
Love,
Rachel
posted by CartiA at 5:23 PM
2 Comments:
I think everyone is feeling drained and tired lately...at least I am. I can't wait until you are apart of SAI, we will have a lot of fun. We should hang out more often, we seem to have a lot in common. Well hope your days go better, and I find naps to be amazing!Lol :) Talk to ya Later
hang in there! college is a lot of ups and downs; believe me, i know! i don't think i have any special words of wisdom, but you are a great trombonist and you'll be where you want to be someday. i think the key is being okay with where you're at while still looking forward.
call me if you need a pep talk!
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