today was ok. I'm tired again, but whats new??? Maybe I'm pregnant...but I kind of doubt that since you need to do a certain something in order to become pregnant. So I'm just going to assume that I must be really emotionally and physically exhausted.

Worked today, was pretty much lazy all day. I really need to get my ass in gear with this trombone thing. I'm so dedicated at school, and I get home and really suck at practicing. I don't know where my drive went...but its definately not on trombone lately. So that will have to change.

Thought about my new years resolutions.
1. Pilates with Becker every Sunday night. We will both become beautiful.
2. Play a routine at 7:00 am SHARP 4 out of the 5 school days. (Yes, I am allowing myself one day to sleep in)
3. Stop sucking at trombone...think about my goal every day before I play. Principle trombone for Chicago or Philadelphia. I will get there someday.


Ummmm.....thats about it. I feel shitty for sharing what probably did not happen with someone I really care about. I shouldn't have even mentioned it....because now he's hurt over something that I probably didn't even do. So much for trying to be honest....I guess I'm never drinking alcohol again. It causes too much pain. So that is that.


Sick this morning...that kind of started the day off bad. So i'm going to stop being cranky now and get to bed. Vitamin C, Zinc tablets, and a dose of talking to Becker. Thats all I need. Now I can sleep well...

-RCC